Familial reactions, part 3

I went to DC this weekend to visit my Dork sisters IRL. While I was there, I spent the day with my cousin. I was discussing my mom's lack of enthusiasm and support with her, and how much it was upsetting me, and asked if she knew what was going on since she just visited my mom recently. The reason that my mom is so worried about the adoption is ...

she is afraid I'll get a baby that has to be returned to its parents and I won't be able to deal with the heartache.

Wow, I feel on one hand like a major heel for believing the worst about her automatically, and also greatly relieved that this is the issue. This is my biggest fear as well, and is also the reason I will wait for a child that already has TPR. Phew, we can put those fears to rest. I am still going to talk to her about needing her to be more excited for me and to act as if I were pregnant, because I am paper pregnant.

My cousin also brought up the shower issue, and wants to do whatever I want to do about it. I am leaning right now towards not having a shower, but just registering for some things that I know I need, then having a meet the baby party after the adoption and conversion are done. She said she wants to be involved no matter what I decide.

I spoke with the social worker this morning, and we are all set to finish PRIDE this week. She will bring her calendar tomorrow night and we're going to schedule the first home study visit. She thinks we can start between Thanksgiving and Christmas, then finish up after the first of the year. That timing works out well for us since I have to wait until the end of February for my FMLA eligibility. I told her how we were going to do our questionnaires separately and then compare notes, and she thought that was a great idea and she was very pleased we were approaching it that way. The paper chase is almost done!